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snake
04:33
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Honey I was wrong, I had to walk down to turn
Get a good look at my ways and hell maybe I’ve learned something
From wringing out my shame - I had to lay down with her
if just to see it was the same thing that got me before
Honey I was right, I thought about it all night
I looked the snake right in his face, I’ve seen the way he blinks that eye at me
But I am not afraid, I’ve heard we’re all gonna die
In a cascade of system failure or in the blink of an eye
Honey I would bet that I’d be just as upset
I’d be at least as mad as you were when we crawled into my bed
But I do regret running right up to the red
I hope the waters down in Assateague are clearing your head
Maybe it was wrong to meet you out in State College
As if we were still together, like I was your only option
But I’m not - and you know that I’m not as true as I thought
But I’d still drive for several hours on a dime if you dropped it
Honey you were kind to tell me that it’s alright
I know my fault is that I speak every damn thought in my mind
But I want you to know that I’ll be holding that line
And I believe in all your mercy
And in the weight of the tide as it is pulling you back towards me
You know that I am always yours if you’ll still have me
Though you’re tired from that long walk over the chasm
But my idea of love is that it’s lasting
But my idea of love is that it’s lasting
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moses kill
02:59
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The sharpest of opinions is lying down forever
Tuesday morning without a sound
And if you say you don’t like what I brought before you
Then all my cards are on the ground
I’m a stream off a stream off a great river delta
Running to the Hudson where you grew up
And I will always circle back to my beginnings
And heed that dark demanding blood
And when I said goodbye and thank you
You know I didn’t mean it to sound so small
And you were looking smaller than I had ever seen you
And I never really made you proud at all
But I’m a stream off a stream off the great river Hudson
Running to the farm where you grew up
And I will always circle back to my beginnings
And heed that dark demanding blood
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golden arm
04:04
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I wish I understood a hundred times
the gnawing in my heart
I wanna touch you on your golden arm
I watched a whole forest grow from seeds
before you got up
The silence always shakes me from my sleep
and I can’t get it off
Be honest darling do you think of me
and all this stupid stuff?
It’s been a few days since I heard from you -
So do I feel the love?
The silence always shakes me from my sleep
and I can’t get it off
I wanna touch you on your golden arm -
So do I feel the love?
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lunch
04:21
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I tricked you, you fell for it - didn’t mean to let you down
I don’t know what I wanted, I was trying to figure out
You said can I come over - got to get out of the house
And I know what you’re after but I don’t have it right now
I’ll go out to State College cause I still am tangled up
And you said it makes you nervous, well I think that’s fair enough
You’re too sweet too sweet I wanna eat you up for lunch
But it’s not what I need I have just been getting stuck
So right now you are walking to the el train to go home
And I tried to be straightforward but I think I got too close
I promised I would tell you if there’s something you should know
So I just wanna do the right thing kiss your head and go
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special power
03:36
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I’m trying to distract myself cause I’m getting tired of crying my eyes out
over you and over nothing
And maybe I’ll see someone else - it is meaningless, I do not feel it
I just want to feel like I’m a separate person
But there’s a slow leak in my tire, I just fill it up every other night
‘Cause after work I’m fucking tired
I just want to go back to bed and spend the next day inside
But I’m still having thoughts about you at night
And we had half a conversation while Jon was in the basement
About going our separate ways but just in the same direction
I light a candle in the shower, try to tap into my special power
I end up on my knees with the water all around me
So it’s ok what I’m feeling, it’s alright if I’m crying
and maybe there’s some good coming although I cannot find it
and I know that light humming on the back of my eyelids
and that your gravity’s nothing to the dark that surrounds it
But I remember being taken over by the feeling
So if you think that means that I’m over you you’re dreaming
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the void / Madison
03:47
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There’s a calling of the void and it’s singing to ya
Saying do you remember when?
You were listening to the noise and it was reckless of ya
Cause I don’t love you Madison
I was humming to the sound as I stepped into your house
Like I knew that I wouldn’t come out
And the the void is calling down from our carefully built boundaries
Saying what if we jumped off of these? We could jump right off of these -
And isn’t that a thing for doing? Lay our bodies down in ruin
I was cutting the alarms when I stood above ya
Saying why don’t we go ahead?
So you ran into my arms, and it was reckless of ya
Cause I don’t love you Madison
I don’t love you Madison
There’s a calling of the void and it’s singing to ya
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white shirt
02:59
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I’m waiting on a stranger
Is that you in the white shirt?
You’ve been gone almost an hour
You are not the friend I had before
And I don’t know how to tell you that
And I don’t know if you plan on coming back
A slow night at the cafe
I know what you were gonna say
You linger and disappear
I’ve got all night to think about it here
And I found you smoking in the park
You had no idea you’d dragged me through the dark
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radiator
03:54
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Hey I know an hour ago I said I’d come and get you well
Actually I think I need this hour to myself
Laying on the radiator but I know I’ll see you later
Suddenly i’m stepping on what I’ve been covering up
When I think about you it is like a knife in my gut
Maybe I should tell you what
And you called to tell me that you had a terrible day
So I’ll come and pick you up outside of the Rite Aid
With the lamplight on your face
And you know I like you exactly that way
But I know the birds are circling my heart
Maybe I am frightened of what happens if I start
Saying what I have been thinking -
Maybe I don’t want to tell you what
Or maybe nobody’s certain about these things
So can’t I just believe in all the goodness that I’ve seen?
Like how you spread your light around me
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icepick
03:43
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Sometimes you get so quiet, walk down to the basement
and try to find the light switch and look for reassurance
But I can’t reassure you if I don’t believe it
I know there’s some distance, but I was gonna ride it
But you and I are good friends, sometimes we’re in love and
It feels almost like nothing I’m ever gonna find again
And I even met your parents even thought they’re homophobic
And it took almost a year for you to tell them we were dating
And your mind is like a fishnet, and mine is like an icepick
Sometimes it really works and sometimes it leaves us hanging
And I get so frustrated about your communication
But I know you can’t help it - I’m not really tryna change ya
But you and I are good friends, sometimes we’re in love and
It feels really important like I never wanna lose it
And you even met my family, even though they are chaotic
Even though I keep them distant and never go to Massachusetts
And your mind is like a fishnet, and mine is like an icepick
Sometimes it’s not enough and sometimes I think it’s perfect
And I get so messed up cause I don’t know if it’s working
I’m standing by the window, I can’t wait to let the light in
Can’t wait to let the light in
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00:55
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